I'm a girl and I think I have "bigorexia"
I'm a 17 year old girl. I'm 5'5", [weight edited by 24Help1]bs and I think I have what is called "bigorexia". When reading descriptions of this eating disorder, I notice that a lot of the symptoms pertain to me, but I'm not sure if I fit the exact description. Bigorexia is normally associated with men who feel too thin and want to gain weight and muscle. I have a similar obsession; I want to gain weight and curves. When I look in the mirror, I am disgusted with my body. I hate being called "skinny"; people have teased me for it, even hinting that I am anorexic. I hate wearing dresses, swimsuits and anything that shows off my lack of curves. I look prepubescent. People tell me I look attractive and healthy, but all I see is skinny and boyish. I want bigger breasts and bigger thighs. I have a boyfriend who I love, and I know he loves me; but I worry that if given the chance, he will leave me for a woman with the attractive curves I know he truly wants. I often eat until I feel sick and I am obsessed with counting calories. I also take supplements and try to eat food with lots of fat, protein and phytoestrogens. I'm not sure if this is an eating disorder or not. I'm just sick of hating my body.
@GoldieLox98 - No one besides a trained doctor / psychologist can officially diagnose you, but a generally good rule of thumb is that if this is interfering with your life or causing you to make unhealthy decisions, then it's a problem that is worth seeking help for. Unfortunately, it's all too common for people to be dissatisfied with their bodies, whether wanting them to be smaller or bigger, taller or shorter, etc., but that doesn't mean that there aren't ways to work through those thoughts and to help grow your self-love. If you ever want to talk, feel free to PM me. Take care
