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GoldieLox98
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PathStep 15 Compassion hearts24 Forum posts82 Forum upvotes67 Current upvotes67 Age GroupAdult Last activeAugust, 2016 Member sinceJuly 12, 2015
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Just make it stop
Depression Support / by GoldieLox98
Last post
 April 18th, 2016
...See more I feel horrible. I'm miserable. I feel physically ill and I want to go to throw up. I can't think straight. I feel like I'm being eaten alive. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. I just want it to go away. I just want to be out of my misery.
I'm a girl and I think I have "bigorexia"
Eating Disorder Support / by GoldieLox98
Last post
 April 17th, 2016
...See more I'm a 17 year old girl. I'm 5'5", [weight edited by 24Help1]bs and I think I have what is called "bigorexia". When reading descriptions of this eating disorder, I notice that a lot of the symptoms pertain to me, but I'm not sure if I fit the exact description. Bigorexia is normally associated with men who feel too thin and want to gain weight and muscle. I have a similar obsession; I want to gain weight and curves. When I look in the mirror, I am disgusted with my body. I hate being called "skinny"; people have teased me for it, even hinting that I am anorexic. I hate wearing dresses, swimsuits and anything that shows off my lack of curves. I look prepubescent. People tell me I look attractive and healthy, but all I see is skinny and boyish. I want bigger breasts and bigger thighs. I have a boyfriend who I love, and I know he loves me; but I worry that if given the chance, he will leave me for a woman with the attractive curves I know he truly wants. I often eat until I feel sick and I am obsessed with counting calories. I also take supplements and try to eat food with lots of fat, protein and phytoestrogens. I'm not sure if this is an eating disorder or not. I'm just sick of hating my body.
What do you do When you're stupid
Depression Support / by GoldieLox98
Last post
 March 18th, 2016
...See more I'm stupid and I'm sick of being alive. I'm just wasting oxygen. I don't know what to do. I'm already 17 so I don't have any time to learn anything. I don't want to hear that "everyone is good at something" because I am literally not good at anything. At all. Which means I can't get into college or ever get a decent job. I thought I was good at English but apparently I'm not. I can't learn anything because I can't understand what people are saying half the time. It sucks knowing that I have no potential. It kills me every day. I'm done trying to be something I'm not.
Giving up on life
Depression Support / by GoldieLox98
Last post
 March 19th, 2016
...See more I'm sick of not being good at anything. I'm sick of not being smart or pretty. I'm sick of knowing I have no potential. I'm sick of hurting everyone I care about. I'm sick of being pathetic. I'm sick of trying to be something I'm not. I'm sick of wasting oxygen. I'm sick of trying to be something I'm not. I'm just done. I give up on life.
I'm done
Depression Support / by GoldieLox98
Last post
 March 10th, 2016
...See more I'm done trying. I give up. I hate myself. I have no reason to live. All I do is hurt people
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