Hi, I'm new here (TW I guess)

Hello.

I've been on 7cups for a while. On a different group. I looked at this group before but never felt I could join.

I have a slight history of disordered eating, but it was only at a few points in my life, 20 or so years ago and 5 years ago. So I don't really think of myself as struggling with an ED.

More recently I was advised by a doctor to lose weight and I have been dieting and doing intermittent fasting. Which was fine and all under control, for a couple of months. But I started pushing the time between eating more and more - 48 hours, 72 hours, etc. And more recently I started being sneaky with people about why I wasn't eating, and deceiving them. And about last week I had something like 4 meals in 7 days. And I didn't want to eat anything. And everything felt out of control. Which made me not want to eat anything even more...

Anyway, I looked at this forum and I was like - yeah this is for people with legit eating disorders, not just whiny little benches who can't get their stuff together.

One of my friends has been keeping me accountable for eating every day. I went back to therapy today, and my therapist told me that it would be ok for me to be here, and that is wasn't minimizing anyone else's more serious struggles to admit that some of my thought patterns would indicate disordered eating. So I guess I felt like I wouldn't be a fraud asking you for help and support, even though things are not probably as super bad for me as they are for others.

I saw a post on the SHR group from someone who said they never had self-hamred but they felt like they were close to breaking. I felt like that person had every right to be there, and was glad they felt able to share.

Thanks for listening. I guess I will try to check in when there are check-ins...

No response required really, just saying hi.