Finally Started Treatment

I finally got in touch with a dietitican today who I'm starting eating disorder treatment with and I'm honestly so, so nervous. Up until today, I had been kind of downplaying my disorder because I felt atypical and that maybe I wasn't that sick, but she confirmed today that I have EDNOS and body dysmorphia and we're going to meet regularly to help me recover. Logically, I know this needs to happen but that doesn't make it any less scary. I think it's really starting to hit me that I'm on this recovery train now and there's no turning back. I know it's going to be so hard to shake this illness, but I have hope that I can do it and come out the other side stronger. I'm just super duper scared.