Do these sound like disordered eating habits?

There is no way that I meet any of the actual criteria for diagnosis, but I don't think my relationship with food is healthy. There are some days that I eat fairly normally, but I always end up feeling really guilty and regretting it in the evening. I have fasted a few times and I usually restrict, but I never stick to it very closely. I don't think I have lost any weight (or if I have, its not much), but I feel like its not normal to be skipping multiple meals a day. I'm at a technically normal weight. When I was younger, I was bullied for my weight and I've been extremely self concious since then. Most of the time I feel really fat despite the fact that I am at a healthy weight. Its gotten to a point that my self esteem relies on how thin I look. I don't know if this even is an eating disorder though because I'm not sure if I have lost weight and I'm not restricting enough to really lose much anyway. I know that no one can try to diagnose me online like this, but I just want to know if this is something I should be worried about or try to get help for.