Any tips for ignoring that voice?
Hello all. I'm new here, so good to meet you all. I've been struggling again lately. I had issues with what seems to be an ED for a good few years, almost three, but I seemed to be better. I thought I was better.
I mean, I didn't like my body any more than I did, or accept myself but I realised that I needed help and I needed to stop, so I got better somehow, without seeking help from professionals or adults or whatever.
But lately, for the past few months, I've been exercising again in secret. And I've been exercising openly too. And I've been going on hikes. Over exercising a little bit.
And I've been pinching and pulling and obsessing over my weight again. And I can't get the thought that things would be so much easier if I just....didn't eat.
And the thought that I've gained weight and that I need to be thinner, always thinner. And I've been skipping meals again, fasting and then binging, although that's only on bad days. The binging not the fasting, I do that every day. I used to use good as a coping mechanism you see haha.
And some days I can't find the energy to exercise, depression am I right lol, and everything seems meaningless.
So I'm wondering if anyone has any tips for helping to ignore that voice? The thoughts? Thanks 😊
@memelord500
Hey there. Thank you so much for sharing this with us. Many of us, including me, have had quite the same struggles. I'm glad you started recovery on your own. I understand, it can get tough sometimes, knowing that what's you're doing is wrong, but still being unable to stop doing it. Please know that we're here for you, we support you and we only want the best for you.
The voice, ahh yess, the voice that's still trying to get a hold of me, even after recovering, that voice. Please know that what works for one may not work for the other, and giving advice can be harmful. Ignoring that voice is difficult, but we need to differentiate ourselves from the voice in our head. We need to realize that ED is not us, it's like a virus in us, that needs to go away. We also need to accept, accept that I have an ED, and accept that the only way out is recovery. It's a difficult path, but please know that life doesn't always have to be this way.
You could perhaps consider taking it as a challenge, like a dare, everytime the voice tries to convince you to skip your meal, challenge yourself to eat it, to show that you're stronger than that voice. Realize that the voice doesn't want you to be happy.
Please know we're always here for you. Feel free to contact a listener and talk to them in detail if that's what you feel like doing. Remember, you matter and the world needs you! ❤️
@talkswithariba
Thank you....I needed to hear/see something like this. It hasn't really gotten better, but I still haven't given in. Sort of. I'm not skipping any meals I didn't skip previously and I usually have lunch, so I can understand that's good.
Thanks again, for replying and saying all this stuff.
