About Relapsing
I was doing really well. I was eating normally and I wasn't having the bad thoughts. But I've been really stressed out because of school and its making me really irritable and the thoughts are coming back. I'm starting to hate myself and shame myself when I eat. I don't want to loose all of my progress I've made. This is usually how I relapse, and Im really scared. It seems like every time I think I'm okay, something happens.
Reading your post makes me deeply worried and sad. I am sure you went over great obstacles to get where you are.
What things do you believe you can do to keep yourself from relapsing? Make a list if that helps. Asking for help is great; it is a sign of strength.
I hope you may continue to be courageous.
I like the idea of making a list. I'm going to try that. Thank you for your kind words. It means a lot. @JeffWM
@courageousYard2876
I'll second JeffWM's idea of making a list then! (That JeffWM seems to be pretty smartly and I hear he is amazingly good looking!)
All joking aside, do whatever it takes to keep you safe & well!
Have you spoken to a therapist? They really are the strongest line of defense. PM me if you ever need to talk! I would be happy to help if I can.
If you don't feel like therapy is an option for you right now, there are still plenty of resources you can look into. Personally, I found support groups incredibly helpful and there are many that are free (or a recommended donation only) and all of them are 100% confidential. If you're in the US, try anad.org to find one. If you're outside of the US, there are several, but you might have to dig around a little more.
And if you ever want to talk about it or brainstorm other ideas / get some extra support, you can always feel free to PM me. Take care