Someone help.. (Possible trigger warning)

@amicableJet5919

Hello love, if it is causing you enough concern to believe that it could be an ED. I would suggest talking to a trained professional(doctor or therapist) so you can receive the support and help you may feel you need. However you are always welcome here in this community. I understand the struggle that you are going through and you are so strong for getting through this. Keep fighting on warrior<3

So I am not diagnosed with any eating disorder but I think I might need help. I just will feel better after I type this here. Maybe someone is struggling with same. I mean for sure if you are there. For a month or so, I have been doing fasting and overeating. We know what the reason is, I want to lose weight. I'm not overweight but i want to became skinnier. So i have been doing this cause it is the fastest way. After a few weeks, my stomach started to hurt very badly and I promised myself that I would start eating healthy. However, when the pain was over, I threw up again. It is very addictive, but no effect. I don't know what to do, I can't stop. Today, I threw up again

@persistentLion2739

and at the beginning it was supposed to be just a few days of the starvation, how many times I could not stand it and I started to eat. I was scared that I would get fat so I threw up for the first time