Recovery?

Well hi! I am glad to hear that you have decided to embark on the journey to recovery, so I am proud of you as well. Recovery is a very hard process, and it doesn't go smoothly. There will likely be episodes of relapse, and periods of time where you can't control these relapses. This is part of the journey, don't let it discourage you. For now, try not to expect too much out of yourself, it is a staircase with some obstacles! It's totally normal to be counting calories and trying to eliminate them, so take it day by day. Set small goals, like eating 50 calories more than you did the prior day and refraining from exercising them off/using other means to get rid of them. Take times to write down the day's successes, no matter how small. And maybe have something that reminds you of your goal, something you can look at when you feel like you are going to relapse. It can help enormously.

It's a rocky path, but I believe in you!

Best of luck.