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Eating Disorder Support / by Sarzgb
Last post
 June 12th, 2015
...See more Hey all! So today was my second day so far( well almost I guess 1 3/4!) without purging- throwing up...... Anyways i am very proif of myself except i feel like i just reverted back to my old habits now  i am so petrified of every calorie that goes into my mouth - i added up my calories and i know logically i need more food but my mind is telling me it was to much calories. And i am using laxatives to just try and cut off some of the calories............. So am i even recovering? I don't know maybe just exchanging one thing for the next ??? If anyone can help me please! Thank you!!!!!!
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Eating Disorder Support / by Sarzgb
Last post
 June 9th, 2015
...See more Hello all, I have pretty much always struggled with food - when i was youger i became extremely overwieght, around 3�years ago i decided to lose wieght i hated the way I looked. I started out on a normal diet lost some wieght and then kind of went of the diet then one day i decided i had enough i was extremely miserable, my parents were telling me i had to lose wight so i started to diet again i slowly slowly restricted more and more food, i then started excersizing compulsivley i had days i ate maybe [editd by 24Help1] calories and excersized intensly for 2 hours- i lost a ton of wieght nd people noticed and told me i had to start eating again- all i thought about the whoe day was food how many calories i ate how many burnt what i looked like how i could avoid eating. slwly i introduced in more foods until iwas able to eat three meals a day i was still petrified of carbs or sugar pretty much antyhting prcoessed- i would eat salad, and protien. but it was a massive achievment for me arounf�2 months ago i started getting paranoid that i would gain wieght back so i started restricting again but this time i couldnt keep it up and i had my first binge/purge episode. followed by a round of laxatives and excersize. I then started doing this more and more frequently pretty much every day. The sad thing is i wish i had the control that i used to and would just be able to not eat at all because otherwise i fell that i go totally out of control! i really want to stop!!! i am petrified of gaining wieght�- however i really want to get through this on my own i do NOT want to include my family pr have them know about this!
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