@Bryar
It must be so hard! Thank you for getting to a point where you can admit to yourself there needs to be a change about it.
Here are some things other members of this community have shared... Feel free to respond there or here and let me know if you find any of these helpful:
When did you realize you had bulimia? Personal experiences shared
https://www.7cups.com/forum/EatingDisordersSupportCommunity_54/BulimiaSupport_234/BulimiaWhendidyoufirstrealizeyouhadBulimia_35095/
Ways to keep your mind of throwing up - different perspectives
https://www.7cups.com/forum/EatingDisordersSupportCommunity_54/BulimiaSupport_234/Distractorswaystokeepyourmindoffofthrowingup_22038/
Book suggestion for those working on their recovery
https://www.7cups.com/forum/EatingDisordersSupportCommunity_54/BulimiaSupport_234/BookSuggestionforthoseworkingtowardsrecoveryfromBulimia_25848/
@KrinkTheMellowUnicorn I cannot link these properly since the body of message edit has changed. Could you look into it for me please?