Obesity and everything else that goes with it...
I have neverbeen a skinny girl, but looking back I used to thinkI was so fat even before I was. Over the years my weight has increased usually between half a stone to a stone each year. I now out of control like there i no way I can ever seen the weight all I can do is try to slow down inevitable of getting even bigger.
I have no control. I think about food all the time. Either what I'm going to have or trying to stop myselfhaving. It's a 24 hour thought process trying to stop myselfeating or trying to eathealthy but still can't lose weight and get exhausted having to watch myself otherwise i will be off binging Pretending I dontcare or its a oneoff treat.
Now massively overweight in a constantcycle of overeating, feeling a failure, feeling I deserve the punishment I am inflicting on my body. My eating andobesity help fuel my depression and anxiety, which goes back into fueling my obesity.
I don't know how to break the cycle!
You're not alone.
Compulsive eating or any other form of overeating is one of the least understood - and least empathized - conditions one can have. It's not just condemnation by those who aren't afflicted, but by ourselves and fellow sufferers that makes it so painful.
You'll no doubt get advise to join group programs to change your thinking about food or surgery options to force your adherence to portion control. Each of these approaches has its advocates, adherents and success stories, but no plan works for everyone.
That's not to say you shouldn't explore these options. You should, including behavioral therapy. Just realize it takes time to reverse certain behaviors and beating yourself up over your situation only makes matters worse.
Hang in there. You can succeed.
Thanks. It's nice to know I'm not the only one and this is a real problem not just me being a failure.