I lost myself

Self pitying is the worst thing we could do with ourselves. I have spent my half life in losing weight but it would only make my life miserable & not a inch shredded. When I got married I gained even more weight because of Hormonal changes. I feel even more depressed then constantly the thought of gaining more weight on pregnancy would kill me but when I just focused on having good Nutritional diet instead of gaining I was just same from where I started. Having a mindful diet & making peace with what I am lead me to a better life & a better person.

Wow hes actually the worst, he clearly cant understand how being a female works not everyone is the same or needs to be in his words "perfect" which is probably the fakest you can be in male perspective, i'm sorry you went through that, but please if you want to gain weight do it for you not for others and especially not with him in mind, i'm sure your amazing just the way you are being "skinny" or being "big" shouldnt matter there both great and if you do want to gain you'll feel alot better know that this is what you wanted while you progress gaining more confidence and I would also talk to the friends about it if you feel there looking like that, or find better friends and it's also ok if you want to gain but do it in a safe way having good nutrition a safe workout schedule bc you can really damage yourself, maybe listen to confidence affirmations and have a good mindset, I believe you can love yourself and you should no matter what, remember do it for YOU not for that jerk or anyone else.