I have a hard time eating
Hi everybody! So, about myself: I am 17 years old and I think I have an eating disorder. 2 years ago I had anorexia and it looked like I can recover, but it turned into BED and for a while into bulimia. For the past 6 months I am having a binging period. Now I don't binge every day as I used to, but I do it several days a week. Today I started to get the urge and it was very hard, but I overcame it with working out. I have just eaten lunch and had a very hard time getting myself to eat. I often get very guilty and don't eat, even if I am very hungry, but I know that that is the reason I binge later. So I ate, but I still feel very guilty and can't overcome this feeling.
@ambitiousOrange2776 Hello! I am so proud of you for reaching out for support and sharing your story. Guilt is a very common thing when it comes to eating disorders and it's so tough to deal with and I can definitely sense the struggles you have. What do you feel like about counter-talking to your thoughts? Challenging the guilt and thoughts, talking back to them, and telling them they are wrong and that you deserve to eat and heal can feel like a silly thing to do, but it can be very powerful and helpful. For example. the guilt may say you don't deserve to eat because you already had one meal today, you can challenge it that people need food for fuel. Sometimes thinking back about the little version of ourselves, before the ED, and knowing that you wouldn't deny food to that little kid version of yourself you can say "why would I do that now to myself?". Little tricks like that can help challenge the thoughts and guilt and can help deal with it a little better. What do you think?
