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I just so badly need to talk to others who understand. Ive never had a healthy relationship with food, but after my pregnancy it got worse and I just feel like I cannot stop eating. I binge almost every night. I try to eat so that others cant see me. I think about food all the time. It drives me nuts if I see food but I cant have it for whatever reason. Im obese at this point and deeply unhappy with myself. I avoid mirrors. I dont have the energy to keep up with my daughter who is now 15 months.
I just dont know what to do at this point. I so badly want to eat healthy and feel healthy but like I said it just seems like I cannot stop eating.
@Here4Bea I can only give you one advice, bc it's the only one I know about this kind of problem. It's like: if you are ashamed of the amount you eat, then you should only eat in the presence of others. Bc then there is a lesser chance of you overeating! Bc you won't eat embarassing amounts of foods, bc ppl are looking at you and that alone keeps most people from eating more than you should.
I know I an anorexic, but if I feel the need to binge, I will join my family in the living room and take the plate of food I wanna eat and eat what I think I can eat in front of them.
That helps me to not binge, and that's what you do. You overeat, you binge. But that's my best advice :) Hope it will be better for you :)
@Here4Bea - It sounds like change right now feels really overwhelming, and I think that feeling that way or feeling hopeless about it can make it even easier to revert back to binging. At the end of the day, there's not a simple fix, but it is possible to work through this and to find other ways to cope with feelings and making changes. Something that helps me a lot is to break things down and start small, even if it's REALLY small to start. For instance, I have found that it's easier for me to add more healthy things than to feel like I'm "not allowed" to have other stuff, so I will do things like add more water that I drink into the day because then I'm not as thirsty for other things, or adding an extra vegetable into my meal so that I fill up more on something with lots of nutrients and have less room for the other stuff. What is one small change you can make starting today?
I used to be here a lot, but I've been getting my needs met with Eating Disorders Anonymous online and in Overeaters Anonymous groups in person. It's made all the difference to me, plus I'm seeing a therapist and working with a terrific recovery app on my phone. I'm doing a Dialectical Behavioral Therapy for Eating Disorders workbook. I can't say that I've lost any weight, but I sure have peace of mind now!
