@bloodyashes
Hello to you,
From your post, it seems you're feeling alarmed with your mental and physical health, particularly with the worry of dealing with an eating disorder. You're showing an immense amount of valiance to express concerns with your wellbeing, because it can never be easy to admit if there's an issue we're dealing with!
You've done an amazing thing to reach out to 7 Cups to speak with someone about this and are worthy of being helped.
Although, as a Listener, I do not take chats on eating disorders, there are many who do. Through the 7cups.com/BrowseListeners link, you'll be able to filter and search for an appropriate 7 Cups volunteer who will have knowledge and/or lived experiences with eating disorders and can provide you with some well-needed support. Just a little note, Listeners are willing to hear people out, but cannot be advisors on medical or mental health concerns, due to it not being our place to give out advice and not knowing the ins and outs of your situation. In that case, contacting a doctor would be the best option if you'd want to look into professional advice.
In addition, our website provides a varitey of guides for anyone to have a look at, one of them being relevant to the subject you've brought up. Here's the link, if you'd like to have a look: https://www.7cups.com/eating-disorder-help/
May you find and receive the help you need. Take good care of yourself💜