What have I done?!!
I've always thought that starving myself was something that was considered normal for girls. When I found out it wasn't I felt uncomfortable but ignored it. I told myself that I could control my eating, loose weight, look thinner, and be a healthy person mentally and physically all at once. Now I regret everything. My doctor says that my heart has shrunk and it starting to fail. Along with my liver and kidneys. I have lost control of the situation and I feel so ashamed. Even worse is that as much as I want it to end, I hate gaining weight and I hate not being thin enough. Advice? Thoughts? Opinions? I'm open to it all
@ElizabethTilley
Hello Elizabeth,
I'm so sorry that you are struggling with anorexia. Has your doctor suggested any treatment options for your conditions? I'm sure you must be quite scared about everything that is going on. How are your spirits? I don't have much knowledge on eating disorders but I wanted to give my support and love to you. I hope you are able to come to a place of peace and be healthy and happy! You are a courageous person, please don't give up hope 
@KindListening my spirits are low but hopeful. I just hope that I can meet people who feel the same way. I've always felt so alone and cornered. Thank you for your support ❤️
@ElizabethTilley
I may not be able to relate to your feelings but I can certainly provide my love and support to you. I hope you are able to find other people who are struggling with your condition, I know how isolating it can be to deal with a medical condition.
Wishing you a speedy recovery, hun!
@ElizabethTilley - Hi lovely, I wanted to start by giving you a big, warm, virtual *hug*
I know where you are right now is a pretty terrifying place - all that information from the doctor is a real eye-opener, and yet it's still hard to change what your mind has told you for ages about weight. But even though it's not an immediate change to being ready to recover, the fact that you can recognize the damage you've done to your body and that you are reaching out here for support tells me that you've already started on the path to recovery.
And in terms of what you said below about wanting to talk to someone who can relate, I definitely can! While I'm in recovery now, it was a long journey, and I still know how hard it is to have your mind at war with itself and to know logically that you need to heal but emotionally not being 100% ready yet.
If you ever want to talk, don't hesitate to reach out! <3