Struggling...
Been struggling for a while now, but i guess in the past month things have started to go downhill - worse than they ever have before. I am struggling with my eating disorder. I've had my eating disorder for about 6 years now. In summer 2016 it got pretty bad, but luckily i was able to go into recovery and I was able to manage my behaviours. However, this year has been a struggle - i've been slowly getting back to the place and go backwards in my recovery. I am now way worse than i was in 2016, and this past month or two I have relapsed pretty badly and at a quick rate. My college noticed, they have set me into multiple meetings and want to section me, even I know this has gotten bad. I am not eating much (I haven't eaten a proper meal in 6 days, only eaten two biscuits during this time) and I am running a lot because its the only thing that helps clear my mind. I know its not healthy. I am starting to realise I need help. I don't want to go into inpatient or be sectioned but maybe its for the best. I don't know. Any tips on how to stop the thoughts? make them shut up even a little? It's so hard. My family don't understand mental health and my friends don't care.