I Need To Go Back
Hi, call me Tage, please. Im 19, and have gone through a lot with depression, taking a lot of anti-depressants. Unsurprisingly, the anti-depressants made me gain extra weight, when I was underweight starting on them. Tonight, Im on the verge of tears, trying so hard to feel good about myself but failing. I want to starve to punish myself and help me feel better. I miss my old body, even though I was truly sick. Starting tomorrow, Im going to give in. Theres more layers to why now, but it doesnt matter to mention. My friends and family are sick of showing my pain anyway, so I truly believe this will help, even if it looks bad on an outside point of view. I dont care, Ive made up my mind. I just want to crawl out of my own skin. Inside and out, Ive felt so disgusting for years. Better keep control with something.
@Tage
Antidepressants are for most part excitants, meaning they boost life in you, your metabolism adjusts to what your mind says, activity, life, but that is the downside of administering antidepressants without a therapy and a sypport program...you shpuld have friends, "sponsors" or pets by yoir side by now supporting that boost of antidepressants...in lack of activities awaken from depression we nibble...we nibble at tv, we nibble reading we nibble left and nibble right...because we have this boost of energy nowhere to direct...run, sports, make love, find something to burn energy that os fun for you, they waken us from depression with medicine but no support after medication...