I'm scared

So idk if any of yall are spiritual or witchy or if you think that sort of sh*t is nonsense, but i do and it's a factor that plays into this also it's like 11:30 something and im tired and my tummy hurts so hardly any of this will make sense anyway just shut up and listen

The other night I got the strangest and weirdest gut feeling/premonition that I was gonna go deaf or lose my hearing to some extent in the next 5-20 years. Usually whenever I think of events or see them or whatever and they haven't yet and i get this weird itch on my face/neck or a weird feeling/almost pain in my chest and/or stomach that means it'll more than likely come true. I ended up consulting my pendulum a few times, as well as my tarot cards and some fellow witchy friends, and they said it likely it would happen so now i'm freaking out because i'm a musician and a dancer and my dream is to be a kpop idol and i refuse to do anything else until i've successfully achieved my dream so no i won't make a backup plan and just yeah i'm freaking out and i'm not sure what to do if/when it does happen so um yeah some support would be nice because finding out from the divine powers of the universe is not exactly the best way to find out you'll probably lose a sense like hearing then again what is anyway um yeah hope my incoherent words made some sort of sense i'm so tired anyway yeah some support and/or advice would be nice right about now anyway imma try to go to sleep that or i'm gonna read a bunch of fanfiction because yknow escape yeah ummmmm goodnight

oh yeah i dont know anyone i'm related to biologically that has hearing issues apart from my dad but that's just because of when he was in the army so um i'm pretty sure it won't be anything natural that makes my hearing go aight imma head out anyway goodnight again i'm really sorry to bother yall