I disabled myself by accident in a work accident .
At 19 years old working my first job. I accidentally disabled myself . I have a permanent spinal injury . It effects my ability to be able to walk stand or sit for long periods of time . The pain can be a lot some days.
Im 21 now and only just now getting ready to go back to work . With lots of work restrictions though .
I find myself feeling so guilty and not being able to cope .
I hate myself for what I did even though it was a accident.
it’s hard to cope that a 5 second event has caused me a permanent reality. or the fact that other plp have had the same type of accident but didn’t get disabled like me .
I hate that my body failed me.
I haven’t been able to sleep for a few days .
the feeling of guilt and not wanting to live disabled has been overwhelming .
Has anyone else experienced something similar? In my head it feels as though most people are born disabled or get disabled by a event out of there own control .
Has anyone else disabled themselves and have advice on how to forgive yourself . Or if anyone has advice in general.
thank you.