Can't Make or Keep Friends
So, ever since I started going to school when I was 4, I’ve always had trouble making and/or keeping friends, due to my Autism and ADHD making me, well, eccentric. I was always bullied and never really embraced by anyone. Going into middle/high school most of my friends were online. Those would come and go, too, but I’ve kept a few that I adore. Now fast forward, I’ve move to another state and it’s gotten ten times worse. Everyone’s drifted away due to the fact they put their other friends on a pedestal (even when they don’t deserve it). I have tried so, so, so hard to make friends here. Regardless of my Autism/previous social anxiety, ever since I turned 18 and started college, I decided to put myself out of there. Either we’ll hang out once and they’ll never/rarely speak to me again. Use me for money or as a therapist. Etc. I have ONE good friend in a different state that actually makes me feel cared about and that’s it. But it’s not the same. I’ve talked to a few others that seem great, but due to chronic illness I’ve developed, as well as work, it just hasn’t worked out. I’m at my wits end with loneliness and idk what to do anymore. I’ve tried Bumble BFF, just trying to socialize in person, MeetUp, etc. Nothing works. I’m even going to a concert and a comedy show on my own this Fall to see how it goes, but I’m not hopeful. I’m still going to try my best, but I’m tired of seeing everyone else with great friend groups or making friends so easily, but me not being able to.