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i'm just tired of this, i'm tired of everything (rant)

anabellamia1189 November 18th, 2019

recovery has no right to be this hard. I didn't choose to go through this and I just feel like im a burden on everyone around me. I feel like everyone just puts up with because they pity me. I feel like no one really cares. I feel like I am completely alone and even the people who have helped me in the past are tired of helping me now.

I feel like I can't be vulnerable, I am so guarded with everyone, I can't be truthful or let people see anyone other than the perfect person they think I am. I am struggling so much inside and I feel like no one notices that anything is wrong. that's my fault I suppose, for not letting them think differently.

I've just been dealing with this for so long, and I feel like im just did, I can't do anything right anymore. everything is building up again and this time I feel like I can't fight it again.

I just want to relapse and I want to scream out and cry out for someone to notice desperately but at the same time, I want them to never know the real me and always see the mask.

im just tired of my mind

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carefulSkies8546 November 19th, 2019

@anabellamia1189

I hear you.

I feel I could be walking in the same shoes.

If that makes scents!!!!!

I live with Bipolar day in day out.

I my self feel I could run & keep running.

I truly feel for you.

I've got the stage I have no friends.

I'm living alone

I have no family due to other issues over my whole life.

Our so called family.

One word too describe

DISFUNCTIONAL