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anabellamia1189
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I Cant Stop Self Triggering
Depression Support / by anabellamia1189
Last post
 March 3rd, 2020
...See more ive had depression for a while, and recently i just cant stop self triggering with videos, text posts and other harmful content. i know it isnt helping my overall mental state but it fascinates me how quickly i can turn. please give advice for how to stop doing this, im lost and i dont know what to do
i'm just tired of this, i'm tired of everything (rant)
Depression Support / by anabellamia1189
Last post
 November 19th, 2019
...See more recovery has no right to be this hard. I didn't choose to go through this and I just feel like im a burden on everyone around me. I feel like everyone just puts up with because they pity me. I feel like no one really cares. I feel like I am completely alone and even the people who have helped me in the past are tired of helping me now. I feel like I can't be vulnerable, I am so guarded with everyone, I can't be truthful or let people see anyone other than the perfect person they think I am. I am struggling so much inside and I feel like no one notices that anything is wrong. that's my fault I suppose, for not letting them think differently. I've just been dealing with this for so long, and I feel like im just did, I can't do anything right anymore. everything is building up again and this time I feel like I can't fight it again. I just want to relapse and I want to scream out and cry out for someone to notice desperately but at the same time, I want them to never know the real me and always see the mask. im just tired of my mind
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