This is selfish, but I don't have energy to deal with this,. We both try to be supportive of each other, but right now it feels like we can't. I love him and just want both of us to get better.
I am also angry because he has insisted that he doesn't need counseling and the only person he has problems getting along with is me. This is not true, but it has been his perception of it.
I hate that I am always the person who has to placate and cope with everyone else's problems. I can't have bad days or be depressed because it upsets and inconveniences others. I am the person who has to be so on top of my feelinga and spend the hours in therapy, take meds, consistently hold my depression at bay.
And the people in my life don't acknowledge that they have issues, don't understand being depressed (I have long stopped expecting them to understand) and.don't have to struggle to want to live.
I am tired of falling into this pit. I don't know if I can keep this going.
I am sorry