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Hi. I’m Melissa. I’ve been using 7 cups off and on for about 4 years, but I’ve never actually participated in a group before. I’ve always struggled with depression, and after some really bad years, and trying different medications that never worked, I finally found myself in a pretty good place, and was doing a lot better. My husband and I recently got pregnant (12 weeks today,) and for the last couple weeks my depression has gotten a lot worse, and I’m basically back at where I started years ago. We had a couple miscarriages before this one, so when I got pregnant, I was super excited, and all of a sudden I couldn’t care less. I have no desire to be pregnant or have a baby, and I don’t feel like I’m bonding with it or anything, and it’s just really hard because I remember being so excited and grateful, and now I’m just not. And I know it’s just the depression, and that it won’t always be like this, but those thoughts being me no comfort, and I just don’t know what to do anymore.