IntuitiveEast Introduction
Hello Everyone!
My username is IntuitiveEast; people on here typically refer to me as East. I am here because I get down on myself a lot and have a lot of mental issues and trauma. It has gotten to the point where I don't want to open myself up to people in person at all anymore, and I can barely want to open myself up online. If you would like to know how bad it has gotten, I had a friend at school last year who I grew to trust just for me to be wondering if he's even my friend anymore.
I tend to get very attached to people who actually care about me, and this makes them run away. Essentially, my life is usually the "I meet someone, we talk, I get attached, they leave" meme.
I'm on here because I just don't know what to do anymore. I have experienced too much, and all I do is push people away, leading to me constantly feeling like a burden on everyone.
Thanks for reading,
East
@intuitiveEast6300
Hello! Welcome to the community.
I'm glad that you made the effort to be here. I hope you can begin to feel better soon! <3
@innateJoy9602
Thanks!
Unfortunately, people haven't read this post, so idk how helpful it will be.
Hope this group helps me...
-East
@intuitiveEast6300
give it time! :)
Hey East, you’re doing amazing by just being here and the fact that you can acknowledge yourself is amazing! Just wanted to hi, I’m new here :) Im here to listen if you’d like to chat!
Hi Judy!
Thanks for taking the time to reach out to me! I just don't feel like I can say anything right anymore. Most of my friends are long distance, so it's hard enough-let alone the fact that I don't know if people at school are actually my friends anymore; due to that, online and long distance are my main options right now for building and maintaining friendships. It doesn't help that I am becoming worse and worse in social scenarios.
The good news is I am seeking therapy, but the bad news is it's not for about a month....so here I am.
Thanks so much again for being here and reaching out!
-East
Would you consider yourself to be an introvert? Having meaningful relationships shouldn’t be difficult, maybe you just need to meet like minded people! Cus I can totally be awful in social scenarios with people I don’t vibe with. And that could just be who you are and there is nothing wrong with that! I want to give you a virtual big hug! I think your amazing for seeking therapy. I know I have and it has made a huge difference in my life. Simple exercises I was taught that I never thought would make a huge difference. I hope the month goes by fast and you have this community here to support you anytime you need to talk in the meantime :)
Hey Jubo,
No, I am actually very outgoing....I just get attached to people. I'm just tired of everything; tired of being abandoned, tired of not letting people know I care. The person from school knows a great deal about me, and it sucks thinking about seeing that person again because they didn't put in effort to contact me this summer.
Overall, I'm just done being hurt, so I'm also done interacting with people.
after speaking with my therapist, I learned that I get attached real fast too. She believes has to do with my dad leaving us at a young age. I never thought of that and always believed it was my fault and I was just defective. Seeing my therapist has really helped me. Just talking to someone really helped me. Just with this brief interact with you, you seem to be a smart amazing person! I’m sorry your feeling this way. Have you felt this way for a while? Took me like 10 years to finally find the right therapist and actually stick to it. Wish I seeked help much sooner.
Hi Jubo,
Thanks for the kind words. Unfortunately, not everyone feels the same way that you do about me. I did have a bad childhood, leading me to feel like I don't really have a purpose...didn't really help that I'm about 8 years behind on social skills because that's how long elementary school was for me, and I didn't have friends until middle school.
Thanks for your support!
-East
