I'm trying
Hi, I'm a 38 yr old male that has never really dealt with my depression. I have always been able to "shut it off" until I couldn't anymore. I'm 9 days out from the last time I almost went through with ending it. This time I was stopped by a complete stranger that has no clue he saved my life. That being said I'm not sure if I'm thankful he was there or angry that I'm still having to fight everyday to make it to the next day. If you met me you would think I'm so happy and positive, always trying to do for others but don't know what to do to help myself.
@positivityshield
Hi, the last 2 times i felt like you do, i drove myself to the hospital and started the process of healing, i went inpatient both times, and learned to get out of my own way in order to be able to really learn. It was 2 long hard years for me to learn how i had been in my own way. I got on 7cups last year and 7 months ago i got two therapists. Now i just got a better apartment and i email my therapist with my honest feelings and express my depression and ptsd and got on meds, it helped a lot and was worth the efforts. We must advocate for ourselves and dont take no for an answer. You got this and your not alone. They say depression effects 1 in every 5 people in the world! Lots of smart people want to help us but we must be fighting for ourselves. Blessings, Day
Thank you, I am trying to take the steps I need to get there. I can't go inpatient because I am my family's only income due to my wife's health issues but I am trying to put things into place to help me cope. I've always had depression affect me since I was a child but in the last 4 years I have lost 4 very important people to me in my life. 2 of which I lost within 2 weeks of each other at the end of last year. I'm close up when I try to talk to people face to face or I pretend that it is not as bad as it really is. That is why my friend recommended this app because I can open up more if people don't really know who I am. I was raised to not show emotion and that doing so makes you weak. I know that is not healthy but it is a hard habit to break.
@positivityshield
I comend you for your strength and see you have much purpose so youre focused on success. There is no shame in having emotions and now a days our mental health can be talked about. This site helps, and as you learn more about finding that balance, you will be able to be helped more and more. Find your balance and keep things as best you can in focus. Im sure you will find the sun shine bright when these clouds lift. Try to talk to several listeners and enjoy some of the simple games on the site and you will fast make freinds! When we help others it helps us back 😊