I'm back again
I joined this app a long time ago when I was in a very dark place, and I'm back again.
I'm starting to not be able to sleep from all the things in my life that are pulling me back into that dark place again.
I decided to come back here after my life pretty much hit the bottom of the ravine again. I'm looking at not being able to pay my own rent, I can't pay for anything my son needs, my husband is angry all the time and we're at war because of our situation in life, and I can't even afford things that I need basically. I'm almost 30 years old I'm relying on my parents to help me take care of myself in my son.
I don't have a car anymore because I couldn't afford to change the oil or upkeep on it so I blew a hole through my engine. And the 1st thing my husband did was blame me for not taking care of the only transportation we had. I don't know what to do anymore, I don't know if I even want to still be here. I look at my son and I ask myself, why did I bring him into this life when I couldn't take care of him? I don't have anyone to talk to, most of my coworkers are senior citizens and I'm ashamed to tell them where I am in my life.
I don't know anymore. Maybe I don't even know why I'm on here right now.
@persistentZebra1289
Hey, welcome back to 7cups and thanks for sharing this with us. Uh,sleep can be pretty hard due to everything thats been going on in your life. Not being able to pay bills and handle the expenses can be pretty hard to deal with and having to be supported my parents can be pretty nervewrecking indeed. And it seems like your relationship with your husband is in a rocky patch too, anything that might help in making it better? And on top of that not having anyone to talk to about all this can be pretty hard. I hope 7cups does help you by being an emotional support system for you. Please do let us know if we can help in any way and would 5love to hear updates on how everything is going once in a while. Take care! <3