Hoping to be happy someday
I am almost 23 years old and i dont think i have been a happy person in the last 10 years.
I think the initial blow was when i moved back to my home country in 2012. It was difficult to adjust and i used to cry at night. I still do.
I have body image issues. In my late teens for a brief time i got over it but now i have trouble liking myself. I hate every inch of my body. I am always comparing myself to others and i want to stop it but I can't.
I made a mistake when i was 16 which haunts me now and maybe it will continue to do so for the rest of my life.
In my teens i was able to control my emotions. But now not so much. People, even my family thinks I'm stoic or stone hearted. My mom says that i always look sad.
What they don't know that is that recently there are moments i break down crying uncontrollably.
I've never been in a relationship. I'm afraid the person will see my ugliness both on the inside and outside and leave me. I don't think a man can ever truly love me.
I just want to be happy. I want to love myself
I just want to be happy.
Hi, I'm sorry to hear that you are unhappy. As you said too, comparing yourself with others doesn't help at all, but you don't have to compete with anyone. You are you, and you are just as important as the others. You don't need specific reasons to start loving yourself, it's a choice. Loving yourself does not mean having no flaws or aspects to work on, it is about accepting ourselves and being kind to ourselves, exactly as we would do with a person we care about. And about your "mistake", I don't know what it is, but one thing is certain: it's not that thing, big or small, that defines who you are. You are so much more. Self-confidence is not something that comes out of nowhere, we have to build it. Get help from anyone who is available, connect with a listener, or consider professional help. Whatever makes you feel better, do it. You are not alone and things can still be fixed. All the best.
