Hi
Hi I guess I'm depressed. I didn't want to join the group but it's been a really low past month and I'm just tired of it all circling in my head. I don't know if this is the right place to do this, the forums always get me confused.
I have a one-on-one therapist here on 7cups but I'm trying to get us to focus on fixing one specific problem at a time and if I bring up things that happen in the meantime I feel like we get off track and never solve anything.
i was ready for move for a new job recently, I have the right experience and education and everything and they loved me (told me so themselves) but I lost out on the job to someone with 10 years experience and a masters. I've been unemployed for 3 years and I just can't get anyone to take me anywhere. I'm either overqualified or someone with more qualifications beats me out. So I've been accepted to grad school to get as high up in my field as I can so they can't say no to me anymore but it's going to eat most of my savings and it has me upset.
I have a bunch of other issues: recently suffered nerve damage to both hands in a kitchen accident, recently diagnosed ASD, severe anxiety my entire life, hearing aids, and debilitating genetic migraines. But I'm also one of 3 part-time caregivers to my elderly infirm grandparents and recently my grandmother started displaying strong dementia symptoms and that has me freaked out because where could they go during a pandemic when none of us has accessible homes set up for them.
I've been distracting myself when I can with a bunch of projects and by watching a show that's become like an emotional support, but it ended tonight and it just feels like everything is falling to pieces.
I know there are good things in this, I'm not filtering them out: my grandparents aren't dead, they accepted me into grad school, I didn't get the job so if my grandparents do suffer a massive setback at least I'll be nearby, I've still got my hands, and I can always watch old episodes of the show from before it ended. But it's all just so much right now.
@AnisneyRobin
Hi, Anisney. Thank you so much for sharing. It does seem like you're going through a lot. I can only imagine how it would be on a daily basis for you. Please know that after reading this, I realized how strong you are. You have so much on your shoulders and her you're standing upright and straight. You're doing amazing. I understand it can get did discount sometimes, but I'm glad you have a therapist. Please know that we all are here for you, you're not alone. You matter, and I hope things get better soon. Take care! ❤️💖
I am glad there somewhere to go because I have lot of moments where I'm overwhelmed and don't feel I have genuine or reliable support.
@Lolowise475 It took me a few tries to find the right therapist but I'm glad I have her. I'm sorry you're feeling overwhelmed too, don't forget that the community here on 7cups is always there for you 🧡 And if it gets really overwhelming you might find a great person to talk to on the Listeners page