Hi

Hi I guess I'm depressed. I didn't want to join the group but it's been a really low past month and I'm just tired of it all circling in my head. I don't know if this is the right place to do this, the forums always get me confused.
I have a one-on-one therapist here on 7cups but I'm trying to get us to focus on fixing one specific problem at a time and if I bring up things that happen in the meantime I feel like we get off track and never solve anything.

i was ready for move for a new job recently, I have the right experience and education and everything and they loved me (told me so themselves) but I lost out on the job to someone with 10 years experience and a masters. I've been unemployed for 3 years and I just can't get anyone to take me anywhere. I'm either overqualified or someone with more qualifications beats me out. So I've been accepted to grad school to get as high up in my field as I can so they can't say no to me anymore but it's going to eat most of my savings and it has me upset.
I have a bunch of other issues: recently suffered nerve damage to both hands in a kitchen accident, recently diagnosed ASD, severe anxiety my entire life, hearing aids, and debilitating genetic migraines. But I'm also one of 3 part-time caregivers to my elderly infirm grandparents and recently my grandmother started displaying strong dementia symptoms and that has me freaked out because where could they go during a pandemic when none of us has accessible homes set up for them.
I've been distracting myself when I can with a bunch of projects and by watching a show that's become like an emotional support, but it ended tonight and it just feels like everything is falling to pieces.

I know there are good things in this, I'm not filtering them out: my grandparents aren't dead, they accepted me into grad school, I didn't get the job so if my grandparents do suffer a massive setback at least I'll be nearby, I've still got my hands, and I can always watch old episodes of the show from before it ended. But it's all just so much right now.