Hello, here's my story

Hello everyone. Well, I've been dealing with severe anxiety and depression for about seven years, since I was a sopomore in high school.Ever since then I've gotten trapped in a cycle of "falling" as I call it and then gradually doing better. Everytime I "fall" though, it seems to be getting worse and worse. My last "fall" was in the summer of 2018 when I brokedown and basically fell off the face Earth. I stopped working, which sabatoged any chance at a future in my chosen career path, I stopped going out, I distanced my self from my friends. This has been my worst fall yet. I was out of commission for over eight months and am just now trying to get back into the world. I'm doing a play and am looking for a new job. It's not much, but it's better than I was, even if most of the time I still feel terrified and hopeless.