Feeling trapped in my own mind
I've been struggling with depression for most of my life. I'm 34 years old now and do not feel my age at all. I still feel like my emotional state has been the same since I was a teenager. I started noticing a pattern in the past few years with my relationships, work, and even the seasons. They say when you know better you do better. So now that I know more about depression and how it affects me I'm hoping to overcome it rather than just deal with it. I want to enjoy my life rather than count down the days. Everything lately feels like a chore, like getting out of bed or eating. I am on medical leave from work now and I'm not sure if I'll be ok to return next month. That thought scares me. I hope I can find more answers and help to improve my thinking. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
@MeeshyRB
Being aware of what we're up against can have two effects-- we can either succumb to the stigma, or we can use this awareness to better nurture and support ourselves with accurate intention. You aren't alone in this. None of us are. They say our emotions can become stunted once we experience trauma-- which, may or may not have been intentional, or could have been the result of coping thru mental illness without support or guidance. So, if you've noticed a lack of emotional growth since your teenage years, it's possible this is what you're experience.. it would be wise to bring this up with someone offline too.
Mental illness, when left unchecked, can impact all areas of our life... but when it disrupts our daily lives and responsibilities, this is usually an indicator that talking to a professional about what you're going thru would be beneficial.
But here at 7Cups, we have so much emotional support here for you! Finding listeners you can trust and vibe with will also be helpful. Sometimes, being able to speak and really be heard is therapeutic in itself.
I know we've gotten to your post a little late, by a few months,
were you able to go back to work? How is everything going now?
Wishing you all the best, Meeshy.
@MeeshyRB
My depression started at the end of childhood lurking in the back ground with me and became major depression about 8 years ago.
I wish your wish comes true, defeat it amd not deal with it...
