Special rant.
Writing this in piiiiinnnkkkkkkkk (I love pink)
my home life...isn't the greatest, my mom is put bluntly an alcoholic. Has been my whole life, it's only now stopped because she's pregnant, but before her liver almost entered the early stages of failure, she almost had to be hospitalized.
(My dad just doesn't give a single ***, and I'm 99% sure is cheating on my mom)
I resent my family, my older sister ran away, twice and bought CPS for a friendly chat at our house (humiliating.) my other sister didn't run away, but did the exact same thing and ran her mouth and bought CPS to, I nevertheless do NOT intend to bring that kind of attention to myself or the family, whom despite it's flaws, is 110% better than being in the horribly underfunded foster system, and my mother, is who I resent the most.
I just, feel like giving up, I've been thinking suicidal thoughts, I've self harmed, and now I feel humiliated, I resent my own family, I resent myself, and I miss my best friend, I coped with self deprecating humor, and now my friends joke about me being autistic or special...That's just, awesome. (humiliating)
TL;DR, My family is absolutely destroyed, and now I'm crying for help.
@IntelligentPink sits beside you and hugs you tightly ❤ pink is my second favourite colour 🙂 blue is my first, blue like the sky, and the ocean and smurfs😁 maybe your sister's got cps involved cause they feel as lost as you, but I'm sorry you had to deal with that. Sometimes when I hear things like this I feel lucky to not have any family. You have nothing to feel embarrassed about honey. I bet your plans are to finish school, get a job, and move far away. So just focus on yourself, on your life. And continue to reach out here ❤ I hope everything works out well and you'll grow up to be rich and happy ❤
@Tinywhisper11
thanks! I haven’t really thought of any plans for the future, as I’m just trying to keep myself in the present and not hope for anything I’ll inevitably be unable to have, I’m thinking I might have to settle for a trade or join the military, either one I don’t really care.
your kind words mean a LOT to me, thanks again! 😎🤘