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Lately, for the past 2 weeks, Ive been going through.. a really, really tough time. What I went through doesnt even come close to any of my hardships before. These recent events.. truly did such harm to me in a way that altered my thinking mentally for the worse and has left me very vulnerable and wishing for d**** almost every second of my waking moment. This quarantine stuff also isnt helping because Im just holed up in my room all day long. I dont know whats wrong with me and why people keep.. walking out of my life. I was in a very toxic and abusive relationship, a very controlling and manipulative one, and because I ran back to my abuser, all of my friends just.. dropped me. They made indirect statuses about me, talking down on me, and I bet they all are laughing at my pain right now. I feel so utterly alone in this world. Its so hard to continue to live on when nothing motivates you anymore and you find joy in nothing any longer. Im always so sad now, and I dont know what to do. I bet my family is tired of me saying, Im so sad, but I am. I dont know what to do anymore; this hurts.
@jcnnie
Hi Well done for being brave enough to post here and to be so honest and share what is going on for you right now.
I wonder how you are coping with those thoughts that you are having?
Is it just the last two weeks you have felt like this or has it been longer?
I am a verified listener here so feel free to message me or reply to this whichever you would be most comfortable with.
take care
paul
@jcnnie
Hi Jcnnie, it sounds like things are getting really hard and I hope that you can survive through it.
I hope that you get to talk more about things and share the burden. It hurts a lot when people keep walking out it seems like they don't stuck by you in the hard times.
Going through a manipulative and toxic relationship can take its toll on you and hearing the remarks from friends makes it a lot harder.
Keep in touch!
@jcnnie
Love, I am truly sorry to hear that. Know that you matter in this world. And screw anyone who laughs at your pain. They were never true friends if they laugh at you, etc. I'm sorry you're in an abusive relationship. And I hope the person who abuses you stops. You deserve all the love and happiness in this world. And don't let anyone tell you differently. And someone's actions don't determine your self-worth. You're incredibly strong, probably much stronger than you think. So I hope you feel better love. I'm always here for you if you ever need someone.
