I hate my friggen job

My first job yay. I hate it thou. Soooooo draining mentally more than physically. My job requires me to change who I am in order to do what I am supposedly to do and putting a fasade all day can be tiring. And then..... I can’t even say what I want to say, but it’s like everytime I think of working it just makes me more sad than I already am. Life hasn’t been the greatest either just all around terrible. And I don’t know what to do anymore. Don’t know if I even want to do it anymore. :(