As a way of coping...
I write poems.. Here are a few that I have written (TW They do contain dark topics and bad words, subject such as d*@th and sewersl!de so be careful)
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1QRk1iZYyiS2hLEAjeciAsE3GbJIKjVtJRmvYWo7OR7U/edit?usp=sharing
This one is dedicated to someone who k! lled themself because of me.. I took everything from them and they ended their own life: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Sr_OsTGM4TK4VR3iIj284X54q4MRawgfbtBn8Xhsf1Y/edit?usp=sharing
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1rCVLY_2RapdVYF8nZypzM_VBzgzcyMQKVjFOFnX6QPw/edit?usp=sharing
Here are some other things i wrote around those times:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1HoUeXh4oeSzsuVu7vdEmg6tf9ug1pStmENjGmJU4vRg/edit?usp=sharing
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1vQvD6kxW7uStfVaAPdFFlR6L1ZEFceZr45XBlAkLFKY/edit?usp=sharing
I had not read some of those in a while and now wow there's a wave of negative memories flooding back, that's nice and I'll go cry now