Always Jaded.

@HarperSaber

Depression, is a mood disorder with a group of symptoms including constant sadness or lack of interest in life.

Since you said you are feeling disinterested about things, it does sound like a symptom.

It may help for you to speak to your doctor about this<3

They may be able to provide you more helpful resources💛💫

It definitely sounds like the symptoms of depression. What kinds of things are you doing to try to develop some support system? @HarperSaber

Honestly nothing. Drawing's basically the only thing I feel good at so i just do that. Idk if that counts. That or just using video games to ignore everything. I don't want to talk to my parents because they'll get all dramatic. The last time I showed signs, they looked through everything I had, banned me from all social media, and told liyeraly everyone that I was s.h-ing

They took me to the doctor bc I had pretty bad memory loss, but they had me fill the depression survey deal right next to my mom, so I wasn't honest on it because she was hovering over me. istg they need to remove parents from the damn room for things like that.

Those things do count and it is obvious that you are trying. Trying does matter.

Maybe we can figure out a way for you to contact the doctor without your parents fully knowing or overreacting. Have you thought about emailing them and asking them for a private meeting with the doctor - ie. coming in saying you have one symptom when it is really the depression? If the doctor's office knows this beforehand, they might be able to make it happen. They are there to help you not your parents.@HarperSaber

Thats a good idea, but I'm not sure how I'd actually get there w/o my parents knowing. They have GPS on my phone and I dont leave the house enough for them not to be suspicious :/

Ill see what I can do with that though, thank you 💛

You can have your parents take you. Just create a fake illness or a fake pain. If the doctor is prepped beforehand, they can say something like "Your child is now old enough to have some of this appointment alone with me." Then tell the doctor exactly how you fear your parents' reaction. Tell the doctor how they reacted last time. You and the doctor can then come up with a plan for dealing with mom and dad together. @HarperSaber

I followed your advice and managed to get to the doctor for a different reason, ten got my mom to leave so I could tell him whats really up.

I got antidepressants and my mom's gonna help me find a therapist from my doctors recommendations.

Thank you.

Oh, I am so happy that worked! You really do deserve to feel better. Your parents will learn from all of this at least a little about being more supportive.

Keep us updated. @HarperSaber

I have a meeting with my first ever therapist on Tuesday. My doctor said shes a bit crazy which is probably a good thing aha

I hope it goes well because she seems nice from the emails we sent back and forth

That is also great! The first appointment is usually the hardest just not knowing what it will be like, but you get more comfortable quickly. @HarperSaber