can everyone chime in on this please???// reasons to stay alive

Spring air

Just the joy of literally anything. Even if it's a macabra though to some degree. I love Halloween. So I think about how I'm going to decorate this year, how I'm going to scare everyone this year. How much fun it would be to scare the living sh*t out of someone (especially whoever is bugging me at the time) and what evil laugh I'll have while doing it.

Or even as simple as the thought of dogs and their cuteness and how will I ever get to experience that awesomeness that is a pupper if I go today?

My partners' cat is a demon. He and I have a rivalry. I'm winning. He will win if I go today. I can't let that happen. Having a challenge helps. being "dared" almost. We can not let the devil kitties win! ;-)

@koyissues1999

there's hope for a better future

Tell yourself to stay alive just one more day and then keep doing that.

@koyissues1999

One day you'll have achieved something great adn you'll look back and think "wow, i did it"

that's mostly what keeps me going when i feel like its pointless to keep going on

I watched a video on youtube, ill link it here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zvkbHIrrrvU I don't want my family to go through what she's talking about and what she says seems like hell and seems like they'll feel what I feel now but they'll blame themselves and I don't want them to go through that.

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So just.

the damp evening air that makes you feel wonder, and the smell of hot chocolate hit you after a cold day

there's dogs. Dogs exist!

I struggle to remember why I stay alive; but just as a base logic, the only other option is nothingness, at least being alive presents opportunity, even at the very worst it can only get better, live for the little things every day and the bigger happier goals in the future to shoot for and the journey getting there. Life will always be a struggle, but without that darkbess there would be no light.