What if I can't get help??
Hey guys,
So I've been dealing with depression off and on for about 8 years now. This particular bout has been the worst one yet. I've been especially depressed and self-harming for almost 6 months now. I've never wanted to seek help before because I've always thought I should just able to handle it on my own. But I can't do that anymore and I really need help.
The thing is, I moved to Central America 2 months ago. A therapist is out of the question, as there just aren't any where I live. My only option is to visit a primary care physician and hope she puts me on meds that will help me out until I'm back home. This is worrisome for a few reasons...1) I've asked around and it seems that the people here have a huge stigma about mental illness and they tend to think it's something to deal with in private. 2) I visited the pharmacy the other day just to see what meds they have available (almost all medications here don't even require a prescription). I was told that while I likely wouldn't need a prescription, they just didn't even have any antidepressants. 3) I'm not sure my Spanish is good enough to accurately describe what's going on and how bad it is without throwing the word suicide in there whish I feel like would cause a ton of extra drama.
So I'm just worried that even if/ when I work up the courage to go and ask the doctor for help, I won't get what I need. I don't know what to do, I feel so stuck in this.