Is my depression going to push everyone away from me?
I'm currently suffering with depression and I'm recently moving away from being suicidal, despite the depression getting worse.
I'm very open about it, trying to reach out to the people around me for help, but it's become apparent that those people don't actually want to help. I'm worried that the people around me are going to be pushed away from me or if they're pushing me away because of it.
I understand it's hard to deal with someone who's depressed, but it's not easy to pretend it's not there either.
I don't know if I want therapy or counselling since that would make my parent aware of it, and my situation could get worse if I tell them. I tried to do online counselling, but I always get too scared in the end.
Should I just try to look happy instead?
What should I do? I don't want to lose them.
@Jade225
I would suggest you talking to your parents tbh with you. I can relate how hard it can be opening up to your parents and how things can get worse but to be put into therapy they have to put you through this because you are under 18.
As for people around you, there are people that won't stay by your side forever. It took me a long time to accept that but I now have friends that have stayed even when some they don't know what I'm going through. So if you worry about people pushing you away that might happen and from people you also thought that would here forever. Also us, pushing people away is a common when we have depression so I would suggest letting people know that they need to be patient.
I can understand how depression not only pushes other away but also ourselves. In a rage of depression I feel hurt and I want to hurt back those around me, if possible those that hurt me. Hurting anyone is not okay!! But we do it. At that moniker I can not think rationally , and afterwards I feel even worse for having caused a scene. I also find myself being overly dramatic about everything so that I can get some attention... it is so hard for me to be relaxed and have a nice time with anyone. What ever has triggered my depression, anxiety, all my self loathing can explote in a seconds notice. I get scared not being able to be rational and I try not to be - sometimes I find it is not enough. Asking for help and getting some coping skills would be nice. I have gone to several therapist and I have reflected on many things. Hurting others and hurting myself is a way of pushing everyone away because of the hurt. I am scared of being left alone ... and yet by phasing other away I see this becoming a reality in myblife- not that I want it but that is destructive side of depression.
@guilty2014 Wow, I feel you have just described me completely there. I too lash out at people I feel have hurt me. Very interesting to see someone else put this in writing, I kind of get my own personality now.
I guess my depression is pushing everyone away since the groups aren't liking what I type in them.
@DanaMH
You can't please everyone so don't bother dwelling on the people that are not supportive, there will be plenty of people out there too who are and we do support you! So stay strong and focus on the ones who are helping :) We want you here.
@Jade225 Hello Jade. I am also very sorry to hear this. I want to tell you that you are not alone. We will help you. There is a song that I know that is very calming and inspiring.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RCMXO9sBIcU
I hope that you like it.
I'm desperate for help but I can't talk to anyone, I don't feel close enough to anyone to do this. One person I thought I could trust just told me I am f***** up, has upset me incredibly as the truth hurts. Depression is awful and takes a special kind of person to help and support.
intersting to hear people's stories here and comforting to know I'm not alone in this.
My depression forces me to push people away based on irrational insecurities in my own head.
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My depression is pushing everyone away. I have no friends and when I try I dont have much to say so they leave. My family we just exist in same house but sometimes I have a hard time feeling like I belong in my family. O well thats just my life I guess.
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@cyanSkies4025
This is exactly how I feel. I know exactly how you must feel.
@cyanSkies4025 Same here. I totally understand what you mean
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I barely talk to anyone at work. Some of it is due to anger at them. My boss has caused such division in our office for me that I don't trust and like him and most of the people I work with. It used to not be this way. My depression and dislike of them have distanced me and I'm so miserable at work. This is where a lot of my problem is, but I can't leave. I've been there over 20 years and I carry the health insurance which is great insurance. I'm held hostage. I'm going my boss shows his true colors to the wrong person (higher up) and has his wings clipped.
At home, my husband and children are supportive and I'm thankful. I have a sister who is also supportive and working with me to get me help. I'm pretty blessed. My home is my safe zone.
@LittleOne7 it's so challenging working in a toxic environment like that. Especially when it's your boss causing all the chaos. Have you spoken to HR? I know that's not always an option. I also have a boss that I can't stand. I've learned to just keep my work at a distance as much as possible, and only interact with him when necessary to make him happy. No one should have to work like that though. I'm glad you have the support you need on the outside! Not everyone has that.
Sometimes it seems that way. Although I think it