that makes perfect sense and i have felt the same way for a very long time. loving yourself is a very long process, but i believe you can do it. telling yourself positive affirmations can be very helpful. i’m going to provide you with 2 links of affirmations for self esteem and loving yourself: https://www.7cups.com/experts/powerful-self-love-affirmations and https://www.7cups.com/experts/20-more-self-affirmations. feel free to check those out and i hope they’ll be of some help! remember that it won’t be instant. it’s a very hard thing to do, so don’t get too down if you aren’t seeing results right away ❤️