Afraid of saying how did you feel?
If you need help put it down below and if anybody feel like that will tell something
I'm always afraid to say how I feel. I feel like I'm always being judged and really stupid so I don't want to say something stupid and have everybody laugh. Sometimes I wish I could just sleep forever.
Who cares if people laugh for you having feelings? At least you know that they aren't your true friends. Don't ever feel bad for feeling feelings. Don't apologize for who you are. Always be true to yourself, that's is the only way you can be happy.
I Feel like I'll somehow mess up on my own feelings. I'm afraid of posting or going into chat bc I know that people will judge and make fun of me. I don't feel very secure about anything.
That's the beauty of the chat. You get to be your true self. You'll never have to face anyone. They don't know anything about you, but what you put out there. People are here to help, not destroy. And if there are people like that, then ignore them. They are just trying to pull you down. And people that try to pull you down only means that they are below you.
I feel pathetic because I have beendepressed for ever but have only thought and planned suicide, never attempted. Does that make me lame or just really bad at follow thru?
No! It just means you value life! You know, even if you don't know you know, that there is still something worth living for. I hope you tell or have told someone in your everyday life such as a trusted teacher, friend, parent, sibling, church figure, etc. what you are going through so you can get help. Just remember, people care about you!
I hate the weighted feeling of always being less than. Had I attempted suicide, it would have illustrated seriousness...not just a fantasy of stepping off into the abyss...
Annie, I get where you're coming from. I've been depressed and suicidal for four years now, yet I've never self-harmed or made an actual attempt on my life because I'm weak. I'm terrified of many possibilities: someone finding out how I really feel but misunderstanding me, making a failed suicide attempt, etc. It also used to be the case that, when I was feeling kind of numb or even normal, I'd doubt if I was really depressed and not just acting melodramatic. I now believe that's not the case. When you simply feel miserable most of the time or when you think you want to die or wouldn't mind it, you certainly are not faking anything. I've learnt not to misunderstand myself or underestimate my feelings. You're not lame for not going through with your plans for suicide. I do the exact same thing. Even today, I hesitated when I had planned to drug overdose whilst alone at home. Yes, I hate myself for not doing it again and I am extremely frustrated right now, but that's because I despise these terrible feelings I have and I just want them to stop. Sorry my message is so long, but I wanted you to know that you're not alone.
It's a never ending whirlpool of emotions in my head. Questioning my sanity at all times. Questioning my effect on people all the time. I'm trapped inside my mind and I feel nobody knows and understand what is going on. I've this head filled with insecurities and thoughts on whether I'm being too silly running simultaneously. It's making me hate every second of my life. Like someone e is SCREAMING inside my head. But I can't tell it to anyone. Feels like there is no escape from this. Feels like this person inside my head will never leave me.
I feel like my emotions are a burden to people who are loving life. My depression isn't severe, it's really just tiresome. Sometimes it feels easier to mask than to confront.
I have been depressed for almost a year now and have never told anyone outside of here because I don't want them to judge me or treat me differently. Also whenever anyone asks me how I am I automatically respond with I'm fine, without even thinking. I'm really bad at talking about feelings and generally don't display strong emotions. I really want to tell someone but I also really don't. [Also a girl in my class just came back from being off school with depression related issues so even if I told anyone they'd just think I was copying]