hi, i think i get what you’re saying.. i feel like that too. for me think it’s because i’m very isolated and have problems expressing my feelings. i don’t really have much experience sharing personal things and what’s actually going through my mind with other people, and i think that’s why i feel so alone. because i feel like no one understands me, and the things i truly feel and care about are all kept to myself. i feel like its a lack of connection, personal connection. i’m trying to open up but it’s hard, i only have a few people to talk to and the act of opening up and talking about these things is really hard for me. i hope it gets better for you, and hope you make more personal connections with people