I've never felt more alone it feels so scary getting old
I really relate to this lorde lyric at the moment. I'm in high school and I have two close friends but I still feel so so so very alone.
Lately everyone's been posting Halloween party stories where they're with their friends dancing while I was just at home studying. It's not like people in school don't like me , but I'm definitely not on the party lists and it hurts because it feels like I'm wasting high school years being invisible.
It gets really lonely and life feels pointless
I guess I just need to know that life after high school does get better for people like me. That we're not always gonna be invisible
From my experience, as time goes by, you care less about people's opinions, and become stronger in your own beliefs, that leads to worrying less about not being invited to parties. One finds comfort in their social circle even if it is small. Ultimately it doesn't matter how big or small your social circle is. What matters is where your happiness lies. If talking to a bunch of people makes you happy, then that's where you belong. If hanging out by yourself feels more rewarding, then that's the way to go. You experiment and then you figure out where home is for you.