I'm numb
I'm the backup friend all I do is care and worry about others but no one ever care about me as much as I do them. so I have no one to talk to. my depression and anxiety are eating me alive. I've spent so long suppressing my feelings I just kinda forgot how to feel. I miss him. I want him back. I just need him maybe then my problems will go away.😪
Being the friend that people go to in times of crisis or need is a very upsetting realization to come to. It hurts when people don’t treat you in the same way you treat them, especially when they are not there for you when you need them. I wonder what would happen if you confronted them about this one-sided feeling you have? If you already have, how did it go and feel?
Suppressing emotions may briefly let the pain lessen, but you have seen how it affects all other emotions as well. I am assuming your lost relationship also impacted your relationship with your emotions because it’s very difficult to sit with such pain in your life. Losing this person probably felt devastating because they offered you an island of hope and stability. Without them, you don’t have a soothing balm for your problems. I hope that you will eventually be able to regain your feelings and also feel the emotional stability and comfort you’re looking for within. If you ever need to talk, please remember you can reach out to any listener, including me.