Alone at last
Even though I have a boyfriend right now, I feel ignored and unloved. It kills thinking about him all the time, while he only talks to other people and complains about me to his dad (who is not a person who stays with a woman once it gets complicated). Because of his ignorance I started talking with his best friend, who is also my best friend now, so in the end, his absence brought me something great. Maybe even something greater than our love at the moment.
@GoldAurum - I'm sorry that things have been so hard with your boyfriend right now, but I'm glad to hear that you've gained such a strong friendship out of it. When you think about your relationship, does it feel like there is still potential for good there, or like it's only causing you pain? What do you think would make you happy, and is that possible within the relationship or only outside of it? There's not necessarily a right or wrong answer to these questions, but anytime I hear someone speak about feeling so much pain in a relationship, I want to see them really think through the good and the bad of it and know what they need to be happy.
@Anomalia First, thank you for replying, I never thought someone would read that.
Honestly, he let dream about a life, a future that I would die for. It's just that he ignored me the last few days and that's partly because I pushed him away, because he ignored me anyway, why would I give him my attention now? But I spoke with him yesterday and told him all this and it seems like he's trying harder now, which makes me happy. In the end I don't if it's worth it or not, but he made me laugh yesterday, so the crying the day before was worth it. Like the saying goes: "There can't be rainbow without a little rain." :)
@GoldAurum - Glad to hear that you two were able to talk about it and that at least right now, things seem to be looking up. :)