A Mix of Things.

So March 5th I had my gastric bypass surgery. As of today's date, I am healed and feeling about 99%. The problem is loneliness. My older sister was with me for a week but she had to return home to her husband and life. So I am back to living in my situational depression, and my loneliness due to my social anxiety disorder, and while I have physically done something good for myself by having this surgery; I can't seem to be excited or care that I have done it. There are more pros than cons for having it done which was the only logical reason I can come up with to justify me having done the surgery.

I need to find something I can volunteer at during the day for a few hours.

I want to cry so bad. My meds do their job though.