some related thoughts I have that I can't really share with anyone

So i've been diagnosed with depression/anxiety a couple years ago. I've tried medications and counsling, none of the meds helped, they either made me worse or did absolulty nothing. The counsling isn't really helping either but i'm trying to stick with it and hope that it does help. I've been at what I thought was rock bottom in terms of depression, and then got back up to a somewhat more stable level. But i've felt myself gettting worse over the past few months, and slipping back down thru the levels. I've been tempted to try different meds and hope that they help, but i'm hesitant with that. See, I don't want people to worry about me even if they should, so I fake smile and fake being fine, because I feel like people get tired of my sadness/inabillity to function well. Or at least get tired of me talking about it, even though I don't talk about it often. I don't know what to do really.

Anyway I think thats all I really wanted to share.