my depression gets in the way of everything...
im 15 almost 16 and ive never been in a real relationship. my longest lasting one was a week long. i know...pathetic. my friends all tell me im pretty and that im funny and kind but i look at all of them and how they're all able to get boyfriends/ girlfriends so easily and im just here. i try everyday to tell myself im worthy of love and acceptance and that some day ill find someone who will love me, but then my depression sets in and i think about how thats not true and what guy/girl would want someone who can't even function properly in a relationship. i dont even think ive had a real emotional attachment to anyone. the only real one i have had to this guy who only liked me as a friend and even then my depression kept telling he never liked me and that i wasn't worth his time and im just... just sooooo tired of crying myself to sleep because i feel too ugly or too fat or just not worth it. i hate having depression and i hate being alone. any thoughts on this matter?
You will find love one day. You have time. You'll find someone who will love everything about you and will help you love yourself. Somebody who will try their best to understand your pain even if they can't fully understand. You will have that one day. I promise. ❤
Honey .. If I was your mother, I would tell you this: you are so young, so pretty, and have so many more opportunities than worrying about the boy next door. I know it's fun, I've been there and done those stupid things .. that is why I don't want you to do those stupid things. Especially in this generation. When I was growing up, we played outside, not on Facebook and the fancy Ipods. So, use your fancy Ipod and study for school. Make something out of yourself. Boys don't turn into men and want serious relationships until they're like 30 anyway .. you have a long way to go. Don't waste it over a boy. :)